I have ALL my appt's scheduled and will be talking with a physician and the schools health clinic on monday about metformin and BCPim a little scared about the BCP though. I know that yaz ans yasmin are two that are recommended for PCOS but have MAJOR issues, like a recall was put out on them because of medical issues. I'm wondering what else is out there for me to use....
Anyway I did well today, had a little mini challenge about what to and not to eat and how healthy to be at a restaurant. My friend and I went to sushi which in general is pretty healthy but they had CHOCOLATEEEE and calorie filled sushi goodness (the really yummy sushi that is healthy but not so healthy *dies*). I wanted it all!!!! I ended up walking out having ate a little over 700 cals which is more than I wanted to eat ( I wanted to have 300 or 400 which at a sushi place is TOTALLY doable) but that is ok, still under my cals by 81 :DDD). Preparing for the beach wed. Gonna get packed tomorrow with all the little surprises that I bought that the BF doesn't know about yet HEHEHE.
I was out shopping with my girlfriend today and she is litterally a size TWO. ugh. Hate standing next to her. We were shopping at target for cute bras for her and OMG did you know they even sold bras for $17??? CUUUTTEEE ones too!
OMG I would own so many bras if I was able to shop there HAAHAHAH. I am kind of hoping I shrink to a DD or a D that way I CAN shop there. Next week is gonna be soo hectic. I start school and have my drivers test and have 5 doc appts (the endo isnt until oct sadly :\) so my health will be on the fast track to recovery! OOT OOT. I am EXCITED! I am sooo gonna do this this time. I said that last time and I did do it, in a way. I said I was gonna lose the weight, I didnt say I was gonna lost it all, I just said I was going to lose weight. which I did. I lost a total of 72 lbs from my highest. I am EXACTLY the same weight right now that I was at this time last year. I am trying to look at it as I have learned how to maintain, even though I have gone up by 10 lbs (mainly water weight) and down by 10 lbs (my lowest) I have stayed generally around this weight so I am hoping it is all downhill from here :D I had only 37 lbs to go till goal and that sounds like so little but now I am back to 47 and that is sooo close to 50 lbs :\ My ultimate goal is to get to 170 but that number yea :\ It is 77 lbs away and looks soooo far. Its discouraging to sit here and say YAY I lost 72 lbs! Boo, I have 77 more to go :\. So yaaayy!!! I lost 72 lbs ! I have 47 left to go :D
I just had to let this all out :D IDK why I am so freakin happy but this whole losing weight thing has me EXCITED! I was going to let myself have 2 free days at the beach but I am doing so well and finding this so easy at the moment that I don't want to break my groove. I know that I will not be within calories range but I am going to eat sensibly. I have two treats planned, squeaky cheese from the tillamook cheese factory and a piece ,yes just one piece of fudge from a little taffy shop in the town we will be staying in, Other than that I will not drink at the casino and I will be SENSIBLE with my selections at the restaurants and at breakfast :D Here we go world get ready for a sexier, skinnier , healthier, prettier and happier me!
My weight loss progress
Monday, September 17, 2012
Thursday, September 13, 2012
again, again, again.
Yep Again.
Well First I am have to say I haven't technically gained since I am about the weight I was at this time last year. The depressing part? I HAVE BEEN AT THIS WEIGHT FOR A YEAR!!! ugh. I have made it down to 237 a few times and come right back up. That number *points to 237* is my barrier and I will kick its ass this time! I will NEVER see 250 OR 240 once I make it out this time. NOT GOING OT HAPPEN. I am at this, I got this, I have the rage, the fire in me I had the first time around and I LOOOVVEEE that feeling. My goal is to be between 211 and 225 by dec 12th (My vacation to cali) ANNNDDDD be able to run a half an hr straight by then so that I can continue exercising while down there. Cali has AMAZING weather in december, and it is still acceptable to run outside there. Plus it's really flat, so none of the hills I have here to deal with HHEHEHE. I'm gonna BUST this.
I've decided to suck it up and make an appt to get back on Met since my insurance kicks in again on the 20th of this month, i can actually see a doctor. OOT OOT. I'm going to see the schools Dietician and normal doctor since that doesn't get charged to my health insurance. Then I will use my insurance for the specialists. Such as a dermatologist and an endocrinologist.
IDK y I am so excited but I am!
Well First I am have to say I haven't technically gained since I am about the weight I was at this time last year. The depressing part? I HAVE BEEN AT THIS WEIGHT FOR A YEAR!!! ugh. I have made it down to 237 a few times and come right back up. That number *points to 237* is my barrier and I will kick its ass this time! I will NEVER see 250 OR 240 once I make it out this time. NOT GOING OT HAPPEN. I am at this, I got this, I have the rage, the fire in me I had the first time around and I LOOOVVEEE that feeling. My goal is to be between 211 and 225 by dec 12th (My vacation to cali) ANNNDDDD be able to run a half an hr straight by then so that I can continue exercising while down there. Cali has AMAZING weather in december, and it is still acceptable to run outside there. Plus it's really flat, so none of the hills I have here to deal with HHEHEHE. I'm gonna BUST this.
I've decided to suck it up and make an appt to get back on Met since my insurance kicks in again on the 20th of this month, i can actually see a doctor. OOT OOT. I'm going to see the schools Dietician and normal doctor since that doesn't get charged to my health insurance. Then I will use my insurance for the specialists. Such as a dermatologist and an endocrinologist.
IDK y I am so excited but I am!
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Hey Ya'll! It's been a while.
Sooo busy after the move. Finally caught up on everything. I haven't stepped on a scale often, but last I did was sometime last week and it said I was back to 241 :\ If I didn't gain more than that with all the sodium, eating out and laziness of the move and situating classes and catching up on everything I'll be happy. I started c25k yesterday and was still WAAAAYYY over my calorie range but I am making a vow to go to the workout room here at our apartments every day. I don't plan on weighing myself for 2+ weeks because I also started some light weight training today and I know that every time I start running I retain weight until my body gets used to it. Add weight training in there and I probably won't see the scale move for a month or so. I am also lowering my cals back to 1200, I had more success there than i did at 1400 because I think "oh I can add 100 cals and it's ok" but at 1400 I do that and I get dangerously close to the cal range where I don't lose at all because of my PCOS which is 1600. Hope you all are doing well on your journey. Sorry it took me so long to come back! HUUGGSSS
Sooo busy after the move. Finally caught up on everything. I haven't stepped on a scale often, but last I did was sometime last week and it said I was back to 241 :\ If I didn't gain more than that with all the sodium, eating out and laziness of the move and situating classes and catching up on everything I'll be happy. I started c25k yesterday and was still WAAAAYYY over my calorie range but I am making a vow to go to the workout room here at our apartments every day. I don't plan on weighing myself for 2+ weeks because I also started some light weight training today and I know that every time I start running I retain weight until my body gets used to it. Add weight training in there and I probably won't see the scale move for a month or so. I am also lowering my cals back to 1200, I had more success there than i did at 1400 because I think "oh I can add 100 cals and it's ok" but at 1400 I do that and I get dangerously close to the cal range where I don't lose at all because of my PCOS which is 1600. Hope you all are doing well on your journey. Sorry it took me so long to come back! HUUGGSSS
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
What a week so far.
Wow. What a week it has been and it's only 3 days since my last post!
Monday wasn't so great. My weight went up by .4 lbs (I knew it would though considering that I had a TON of sodium the day before). Other than that not much going on except I had to return books to the library and pick up my term pass for spring term (not bad )
Yesterday started out AWESOME, then turned to crap. I weighed myself (because I knew Monday's weight gain was water retention) and the scale said 239! Was weird though, I thought I'd be so much happier once I got into the 230's. Don't get me wrong I was happy but not ecstatic :\ I don't know if it is because I was in the 240's for so long it feels unreal or if it just hasn't sunk in yet. Then I went and checked my grades from school I received 1 A, 2 B's and a pass (pass/no pass grading option). That means I made honor roll! Woot! That I was happy bout.
After my AMAZING morning my day just went downhill :\ My grandmother has been in the hospital and her health took a turn for the worse. My aunts wanted my mom to get down there but she couldn't because she didn't have the gas, doesn't know where the hospital is and can't walk to a bus. My sister Christina is an hour away, Heather didn't have the bus money and Melissa didn't want to go. So that left me. Except one problem. My aunt didn't want me there and my grandmother didn't want to deal with it and both of us being there knowing my aunt doesn't like me would stress her out so I got halfway to the hospital to be told my grandmother didn't want me there :\...awesome... I went to a friends and hung out for a bit but just was really eh. I wanted to be alone/with my boyfriend. People kept trying to talk about things and sometimes I need to process stuff privately before talking about it ya know?
Today My boyfriend and I are SUPPOSED to meet his cousin that he hasn't seen since he was like 5 but I'm not sure that will happen.
Tomorrow I have an appointment with my scholarship mentor at noon then need to go meet my boyfriend at work so we can go turn in our apartment applications *crosses her fingers* ( I'm nervous).
Then friday I have to go to the trimet office and pick up my friends bus pass (she has 2 small kids so it's hard for her to get down there to get it herself) and then take it to her. Then anxiously await the results from the vet (Matt is taking teddy in because he is limping a tiny bit).
Then saturday....Well I guess I have saturday free. My classes open online on sunday then monday classes start. (YIKES!)
Busy week, Hoping I stay on plan, I want to get back to my 2-3 lbs a week loss I had before. Matt is doing AMAZINGLY well in 2 months he has lost almost 30 lbs. Almost 10 lbs more than I have. WOW. Makes me want to speed up though so that I still weigh less than him ;)
I think that is all for now. Will update again soon ;)
Monday wasn't so great. My weight went up by .4 lbs (I knew it would though considering that I had a TON of sodium the day before). Other than that not much going on except I had to return books to the library and pick up my term pass for spring term (not bad )
Yesterday started out AWESOME, then turned to crap. I weighed myself (because I knew Monday's weight gain was water retention) and the scale said 239! Was weird though, I thought I'd be so much happier once I got into the 230's. Don't get me wrong I was happy but not ecstatic :\ I don't know if it is because I was in the 240's for so long it feels unreal or if it just hasn't sunk in yet. Then I went and checked my grades from school I received 1 A, 2 B's and a pass (pass/no pass grading option). That means I made honor roll! Woot! That I was happy bout.
After my AMAZING morning my day just went downhill :\ My grandmother has been in the hospital and her health took a turn for the worse. My aunts wanted my mom to get down there but she couldn't because she didn't have the gas, doesn't know where the hospital is and can't walk to a bus. My sister Christina is an hour away, Heather didn't have the bus money and Melissa didn't want to go. So that left me. Except one problem. My aunt didn't want me there and my grandmother didn't want to deal with it and both of us being there knowing my aunt doesn't like me would stress her out so I got halfway to the hospital to be told my grandmother didn't want me there :\...awesome... I went to a friends and hung out for a bit but just was really eh. I wanted to be alone/with my boyfriend. People kept trying to talk about things and sometimes I need to process stuff privately before talking about it ya know?
Today My boyfriend and I are SUPPOSED to meet his cousin that he hasn't seen since he was like 5 but I'm not sure that will happen.
Tomorrow I have an appointment with my scholarship mentor at noon then need to go meet my boyfriend at work so we can go turn in our apartment applications *crosses her fingers* ( I'm nervous).
Then friday I have to go to the trimet office and pick up my friends bus pass (she has 2 small kids so it's hard for her to get down there to get it herself) and then take it to her. Then anxiously await the results from the vet (Matt is taking teddy in because he is limping a tiny bit).
Then saturday....Well I guess I have saturday free. My classes open online on sunday then monday classes start. (YIKES!)
Busy week, Hoping I stay on plan, I want to get back to my 2-3 lbs a week loss I had before. Matt is doing AMAZINGLY well in 2 months he has lost almost 30 lbs. Almost 10 lbs more than I have. WOW. Makes me want to speed up though so that I still weigh less than him ;)
I think that is all for now. Will update again soon ;)
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Finals are ended
Finals are finally over. The apartment hunt with the BF continues. I pigged last week. Majorly :\ Ugh. 3 days of binges. Thankfully I managed to still lose .2 lbs as of this morning. I SOOOO want out of the 240's I HAVE to crack down. I know I can too, I just....yea IDK what is wrong with me. Hoping I will be down a lb tomorrow. I'm gonna try a fasting thing today and see what that does. I heard Intermittent fasting was good for PCOS. Maybe I will give it a try. I always preach not to not eat but honestly, our ancestors didn't always know when food was going to be present, we are designed for irregular eating. I am going to eat no breakfast. Have subway for lunch, then no dinner and see what the scale does in the morning. Then I will eat as normal on Monday. If I can do this, I think I won't not eat every day, I would at least have dinner or lunch, something. Also, I would only do it 1 or two times a week plus count my calories for the rest of the week. See how it goes. My boyfriend is doing GREAT 5 lbs gone this week *not fair* He;s almost to my weight now! I gotta hurry up, or he will catch up LOL.
Still waiting on my grades from my classes *bites nails* it's sooo hard. I'm worries about how I did on my final papers.... Ugh. At least I know I passed math!
Still waiting on my grades from my classes *bites nails* it's sooo hard. I'm worries about how I did on my final papers.... Ugh. At least I know I passed math!
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Busy, Busy, Busy!
Wow am I ever busy this week! Saturday I went shopping with my BF (he can't cook, and doesn't know how to shop) then we saw 21 jump street (YOU MUST SEE IT!) Sunday I spent at the mall with a friend of mine rebecca, that was fun but being at a mall with two rambunctious kids was defo a new experience. Yesterday was spent selling my books back and finishing math homework since my final is on thursday. Today I am meeting the BF for lunch then after he gets off work we are going to look at an apartment, THEN I have a conference with my writing teacher (uhoh....)Tomorrow I am finishing my two final papers (ugh papers). Thursday is the final and an interview to volunteer at oregon partnership. then friday I help my friend move furniture and boxes and on saturday My BF and I are looking at another apartment. I THINK I get to rest on sunday....maybe.... HEHE. With all of that going on it is going to be TOUGH to stay on track. I must not derail now though I was at 241.8 yest morning almost out of the 240's WOOHOO!
230's here I come! (oh btw, only 41 lbs to my first goal and 71 to my ultimate goal YAYAY!!!!!)
Righ I gotta hustle and eat my oatmeal or Im gonna be late meeting the bf (takes me 2 hrs to get to his work by bus)
230's here I come! (oh btw, only 41 lbs to my first goal and 71 to my ultimate goal YAYAY!!!!!)
Righ I gotta hustle and eat my oatmeal or Im gonna be late meeting the bf (takes me 2 hrs to get to his work by bus)
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Back for real?
I've said that I am back what? 3? 5? 12? 137 times? This time I hope to mean it. First I want to thank all my loyal readers who have kept me on your blogroll even though I have not posted. THANK YOU! it means SOOOO much to me! Let me tell you a little about where I have been. Last time I posted here I believe I was at 247 or so. It's been a WHIRLWIND Let's start from the beginning.
Things that happened in November
18th I met my now boyfriend Matt.
22nd- I Got down to 243.8 lbs YAY!!
24th - thanksgiving reunion with my family.
30th- 248 (Ugh!)
December
6th- Found out my "Grandfather" (Grandmothers husband) Has lung cancer
14th- Term ended
20th got my grades from my classes 2A's and 2 B's YAY!
25th-Christmas
27th- Started seeing Matt A LOT more (WOOT!)
31st- Matt meets my mother (Yikes)
Janruary
5th Matt and I are officially dating and I meet his mother(WOOHOO)
7th I meet the rest of Matts family at his Graduation dinner (he completed his bachelors YAY!
15th-Grandfather passes away
16th-249.2 Lbs
19th We bury my grandfather
22nd-Beach weekend for Matt's birthday
27th 254 lbs (UGH!)
30th 260 Lbs OMG WTF!!!
February
1st 257 Lbs
2nd 256
11th 252 (Better!)
20th 247 (Yippee)
28th 244.8 (Getting there woot woot!)
March
2nd 243 (Oh yea man!)
5th 248 (Ugh, gotta be water weight from that weekends beach trip
8th 244.8
8th Binge! (oi vey)
9th 249
10th 252
10th Binge (Bleh..I sence a patternn...lots of water weight!)
11th 248.8
12th 247.8
13th 245.6
14th 244.0
That would be where I am at Today. As you can see it's been wild RIDE. Buuuuut I am SICK of seeing the 240's, Gotta bust outta there! I want to be in the 230's by the END of march. I made it into the 240's in Feb and I can make it into the 230's in March!
I did realize something recently though. Jan/feb/march is where I started losing last year...I think I wall in to the winter funk and can't lose then really. I find I lose best during the BEGINNING of the year...and kind of taper off as the year progresses, specially around September and October. Hmm....who knew?
Anyway, that's my story. I hope to be posting more regularly now. Btw, Here is a pick of Matt and I :D
And of course, Have to include a pic of his adorable newfoundland Teddy!
Things that happened in November
18th I met my now boyfriend Matt.
22nd- I Got down to 243.8 lbs YAY!!
24th - thanksgiving reunion with my family.
30th- 248 (Ugh!)
December
6th- Found out my "Grandfather" (Grandmothers husband) Has lung cancer
14th- Term ended
20th got my grades from my classes 2A's and 2 B's YAY!
25th-Christmas
27th- Started seeing Matt A LOT more (WOOT!)
31st- Matt meets my mother (Yikes)
Janruary
5th Matt and I are officially dating and I meet his mother(WOOHOO)
7th I meet the rest of Matts family at his Graduation dinner (he completed his bachelors YAY!
15th-Grandfather passes away
16th-249.2 Lbs
19th We bury my grandfather
22nd-Beach weekend for Matt's birthday
27th 254 lbs (UGH!)
30th 260 Lbs OMG WTF!!!
February
1st 257 Lbs
2nd 256
11th 252 (Better!)
20th 247 (Yippee)
28th 244.8 (Getting there woot woot!)
March
2nd 243 (Oh yea man!)
5th 248 (Ugh, gotta be water weight from that weekends beach trip
8th 244.8
8th Binge! (oi vey)
9th 249
10th 252
10th Binge (Bleh..I sence a patternn...lots of water weight!)
11th 248.8
12th 247.8
13th 245.6
14th 244.0
That would be where I am at Today. As you can see it's been wild RIDE. Buuuuut I am SICK of seeing the 240's, Gotta bust outta there! I want to be in the 230's by the END of march. I made it into the 240's in Feb and I can make it into the 230's in March!
I did realize something recently though. Jan/feb/march is where I started losing last year...I think I wall in to the winter funk and can't lose then really. I find I lose best during the BEGINNING of the year...and kind of taper off as the year progresses, specially around September and October. Hmm....who knew?
Anyway, that's my story. I hope to be posting more regularly now. Btw, Here is a pick of Matt and I :D
And of course, Have to include a pic of his adorable newfoundland Teddy!
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