again, again, again.

Yep Again. 
Well First I am have to say I haven't technically gained since I am about the weight I was at this time last year. The depressing part? I HAVE BEEN AT THIS WEIGHT FOR A YEAR!!! ugh. I have made it down to 237 a few times and come right back up. That number *points to 237* is my barrier and I will kick its ass this time! I will NEVER see 250 OR 240 once I make it out this time. NOT GOING OT HAPPEN. I am at this, I got this, I have the rage, the fire in me I had the first time around and I LOOOVVEEE that feeling. My goal is to be between 211 and 225 by dec 12th (My vacation to cali) ANNNDDDD be able to run a half an hr straight by then so that I can continue exercising while down there. Cali has AMAZING weather in december, and it is still acceptable to run outside there. Plus it's really flat, so none of the hills I have here to deal with HHEHEHE. I'm gonna BUST this.

I've decided to suck it up and make an appt to get back on Met since my insurance kicks in again on the 20th of this month, i can actually see a doctor. OOT OOT. I'm going to see the schools Dietician and normal doctor since that doesn't get charged to my health insurance. Then  I will use my insurance for the specialists. Such as a dermatologist and an endocrinologist.

IDK y I am so excited but I am!